The Pressure of Finding Your Passion

December 29, 2017

I completely admire those people who know what they want to do. They have a clear plan, goals and an unwavering ambition to get to where they want to be. You know the ones, those total 'Girlboss' types that strut around London in their heeled ankle boots and catch up on emails on Macbooks when on the train (instead of just gorming out the window or stalking people on Insta like I do)...

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Why I stopped giving a fuck what other people thought I looked like

October 10, 2017

I was 7 when I first remember being called fat. By the age of 10, I hated P.E. At 13, I knowingly restricted my food intake in order to lose weight. I was finally classed 'normal sized' at the age of 15. Just before I turned 17, I met the love of my life. And by 19 I'd already put on weight. At 22 I was at my heaviest. And now, at 23... I am so sick of it all.


I guess this is growing up

September 21, 2017

I recently went to see an old favourite band called The Maine who I used to love when I was around 15/16 years old. I don't remember when I 'grew out' of them or stopped listening but my guess is when I was around 18/19.


What's so shameful about nudes?

September 06, 2017

If you have spent any length of time on the internet, you'll have probably heard of 'The Fappening'. 

If you don't know what I'm talking about, it is all about pictures/videos of (usually female) celebs being leaked onto the world wide web. These pictures are often nudes, of a sexual nature, sex tapes, private images etc. that are uploaded onto sites like 4chan and reddit by hackers who take the images and upload them without the person's consent.

I'm not going to go into great detail about how obviously wrong this is. Stealing anything from anyone is awful but publishing private images for the world to see is another level of shitty.

What I do want to talk about is how we view nudes and why we are still shaming women for taking them.


5 Things I Learned From My Graduate Job

August 31, 2017

Just finished university and are starting a new job? Terrified to get one? It's not as awful as you think - here's what I've learned in my first 12 months of 'real life' work.


5 Tips for Getting a Job After Uni

April 18, 2017

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April is a hugely busy time for everyone in university. Whether you're completing first year, are a second year choosing your final modules, or a third year finally handing in your dissertation - you'll probably be stressing about something.


Beautiful Roma: a few days in the eternal city

March 14, 2017

Ever since I watched the Lizzie McGuire Movie all those years ago I have dreamed of going to Italy. I have had visions of meeting an Italian pop star, enjoying romantic escapades and then outing him as the phoney and snake that he is since I was a little girl.


January Reading Review

January 31, 2017

One of my goals for 2017 is to read more. I've always loved reading but since I began properly studying English Literature at sixth form and university, most of my reading has been chosen for me. 


Lets talk about Anxiety...

January 23, 2017

Please note, I haven't been medically diagnosed with anxiety and trust me when I say that I do not take the condition lightly. This is just a post to talk through my feelings of anxiousness and how I will manage them to prevent me getting to a point where I need professional help. The idea is to share tips on what others do to ease anxious feelings.

Until the last 12 months or so, I had never been an anxious person. I am more of a brush it off, make a sarcastic comment and laugh about how much stuff I haven't done yet kind of person.

Last year was one of my busiest yet and many things in my life have completely changed since 12 months ago. Now I find myself struggling to make decisions, not wanting to go to out and generally being irritable and worried about everything.

I have noticed this even more so over the last few weeks. With mental health issues quite prevalent in my family history, I really want to get a grasp on this before it starts slipping out of my control.

So how am I feeling now? Well, this is probably the most anxious I've ever been. I find myself with that tight chest feeling multiple times a day and have to take a few minutes, a few deep breaths and ask myself what's wrong before it eases up. I think a lot of my stress comes from not feeling very good at my job and not feeling like I know what I'm doing in life. I'm always tired. I struggle to motivate myself to go out and socialise, I'd much rather be sat on the sofa watching TV. Which brings me to... health. I know I need to get back to the gym and eat healthily, knowing this will also make me feel better, but with little motivation to do anything... it's kind of a vicious cycle.

But I am aware of what I need to do and starting is the hardest part.While I'm always aiming to get more sleep, exercise more, be more proactive at work etc., sometimes it's not possible. Sometimes it all gets a bit overwhelming. So I thought outlining three relatively easy tasks for me should make it a little easier to begin with.

1. So my first port of call is to cut out alcohol. I don't really drink regularly anyway but when I do get drunk, it does make me feel worse for days afterwards. This shouldn't be too difficult for me and long term, I will definitely aim to only drink alcohol on special social occasions.

2. Next is to read before bed. I love reading before bed but I'm usually too tired to do so or can't be bothered.  My aim is to look at my phone less and a book more. I will probably aim to go to bed a little earlier and get up a little earlier.

3. And finally: eat healthily at least 5 days a week.This is hard for me. I'm a massive foodie and always turn to something yummy when I want a pick-me-up. I want to allow myself a couple of days to enjoy eating out or having a big Sunday dinner at my mum's but also be able to control my diet for the rest of the time.

I'm also going to give Headspace a go and try to give myself some more time to think things through. Being able to write things down is a huge help for me and really let's me gather some clarity on my situation so I will try to do that as much as possible too.

How do you manage your anxiety? What works best for you?


My 2017 Focus: Graduate Life

January 09, 2017

I've started and stopped blogging more times than I can count. While the first week is full of promises of regular posts and a fancy content marketing schedule, the reality is much different. In the past, I have always struggled to find the time to blog regularly and often lost motivation to think of new ideas.

But now I find myself feeling very lost amidst the chaos of the 'real world' that people keep welcoming me to. When I graduated from university six months ago with no clue what to do next, I really struggled to adjust. The pressures of getting a job and standing on my own two feet were more than I could handle.

Luckily, I did land myself a job relatively quickly without time to think over exactly what it is I wanted to do. I knew I wanted to travel, but with -£1500 haunting me on my internet banking, that was really out of the question. So it became my plan to work for a year and then go travelling. But six months on and I'm really no closer to paying off my overdraft or having the funds to traipse around Asia.

So here I am, still dreaming of those lazy Netflix days where I could convince myself that two hours of reading was a good days work. Now I work eight and a half hours a day, five days a week and my god, the weekends come and go quicker than you could imagine.

Reading and writing has always presented a form of escapism for me. It seems a no-brainer that re-entering the blogging world would provide me with the tools I need to figure a few things out. If talking about my experiences as a graduate helps me find my way in this big wide world then this blog is worthwhile. If it helps ease anyone else's post-graduation struggles then I have far exceeded what I set out to do.

So that's why my blog focus for 2017 is graduate life. Mostly to stop myself going crazy but hopefully provide you with some insight into life after university. Follow me as I inch my way around the world, find affordable beauty treasures, and give some hints and tips on how to deal with becoming a fully fledged adult.

Here's to 2017!


What happened to 2016?

January 08, 2017

2017 is here. Quicker than I ever could have imagined. Last year has gone in the blink of an eye. My 2016 was to lose weight (for real this time) and it's all too easy to look down at my same-sized self and consider last year a failure.

It's taken me a little while to sit down and process everything that happened in 2016. I tend to brush things off as not being very important when in hindsight, that shit is big news. Often we don't take enough time to reflect on what we have achieved so that is exactly what I decided to do today.


Life of a Graduate: My Quarter-Life Crisis

January 05, 2017

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Having finished university at the end of May, and graduating in July, two days after starting my first 'proper' job, you'd have thought I'd have accepted adult life and been on my merry way going through the motions until I happily retire.